Remember that stress i was talking about?!
well, it's back in full attack mode!! I started at my new store today...Spent most of the day with anxiety about that. Thankfully, i already know quite a few of the partners at that store. And I have heard great things about everyone else.
I spent the first two hours feeling extremely awkward and uncomfortable...I didnt know where anything was, i dont know in what order they go when preclosing/cleaning, and i let my pride get the best of me a few times...transfering as a barista from a shift supervisor makes me feel like everyone is going to look at me and say, "oh, well she couldnt make it as a shift!" It may seem slightly ridiculous, but it's not completely off base either, because i'm sure i would have similar thoughts if another partner was in my position.
My goal is to go into the store with as much ease and grace as i can muster. i dont want to go in with ideas on how to "make the store better," or say things like, "well at my old store we did it this way." I want my addition to the store to be a minor blip on the radar...blending in is not easy for me. But i believe God has been working on giving me a humble spirit. I want to do my job, but stay a bit disconnected from partners. Investing too much emotionally can be extremely detrimental.
The thing that got me through my shift was the hemp bracelet i wear on my right wrist.
I spent the first two hours feeling extremely awkward and uncomfortable...I didnt know where anything was, i dont know in what order they go when preclosing/cleaning, and i let my pride get the best of me a few times...transfering as a barista from a shift supervisor makes me feel like everyone is going to look at me and say, "oh, well she couldnt make it as a shift!" It may seem slightly ridiculous, but it's not completely off base either, because i'm sure i would have similar thoughts if another partner was in my position.
My goal is to go into the store with as much ease and grace as i can muster. i dont want to go in with ideas on how to "make the store better," or say things like, "well at my old store we did it this way." I want my addition to the store to be a minor blip on the radar...blending in is not easy for me. But i believe God has been working on giving me a humble spirit. I want to do my job, but stay a bit disconnected from partners. Investing too much emotionally can be extremely detrimental.
The thing that got me through my shift was the hemp bracelet i wear on my right wrist.
The bracelet is meant to represent all of the wonderful, beautiful qualities i poses. The bracelet was from an exercise in confidence building i did with the dance team i assistant coach. Looking at my wrist, i would remind myself that i am beautiful. i am smart. i am confident. i am outgoing. i am charming. i am funny. i am fit. i am all of the qualities i see in the women that i look up to.
The next few weeks will prove to be tough. But with the support of my beautiful family and friends, and the reminder of my hemp bracelet, i will grow throughout this transition and change.
as my dad reminded me tonight:
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
Romans 8:28
keep me in your prayers,
kgb