I've Got Your Back feat. Heather Roussos


Heather and I first met years ago through Gamma Phi Beta. I know, the two of us in sorority is a bit contrary to who we each are today. But years ago, as we both struggled to find ourselves, we were introduced through greek life. 

Although we met there, our friendship didn't form until we connected through yoga years later. I had dropped sorority within my first year, and as I came to find out, she dropped shortly there after as well. But we both found a community and connection to yoga. And that's one thing I love about this practice. 

Heather is a badass bitch who works tirelessly to learn more about yoga, and then in turn share that knowledge and passion with others. Read on the hear more from Heather on yoga, feminism, and passion.


What is a recent book or article that you’ve read that has challenged your thinking, inspired you, or changed you?
A couple months ago I read The Ramayana. I had heard the stories of it here and there from my teacher, but I had never read it cover to cover. But about six months ago I dived into it. It’s teachings of dharma and love and purpose are inspiring. It’s impacted my living and my teaching. It’s rich in passion and adventure and chivalry, these things that I love. It’s super romantic as well, with this deep undercurrent of “you’re here to live out your purpose.” It was a beautiful reminder that I’m just meant to put one foot in front of the other and trust that whatever is in front of me is meant to be there, and I’m meant to do the work and let my path unfold.

Who is an influencer in your life?
My teacher Stephanie Snyder is the epitome of grace and devotion. In my career there are a lot of examples of different teachers, and I’m always so proud when I send people to her Instagram or class or website. She is everything I want to embody: grace, devotion, honor, compassion, and empathy. She’s so humble and such a beacon of togetherness and community, without the competition. That’s something I hadn’t experienced before. Her concern is in the dharma, and love, and showing up and doing the practice of yoga.

How do you balance that grace and humility you spoke of with the business side as a self-employed teacher and businesswoman?
Not everyone does what I do full time, because it’s hard. I just had to get to the point of not feeling bad for charging money for the services I’m giving. I want to be sustainable. And I know that if my students could see all of the work behind the curtain, they’d want me to be comfortable and happy and content, so that I can show up and serve them. I really acknowledged all the work I do as a teacher, and all of the money I’ve put in to my own education and trainings, and from there I set my prices.

Equal exchange is big for me. And not just monetarily, it’s energetically and emotionally as well. I’ve learned to leave a situation if I don’t feel there’s an equal exchange. I used to stay out of the fear of not having enough money or the thought of losing exposure to then later fill up workshops or trainings. I got to the point where it was sucking the life out of me.


What does feminism mean to you?
Feminism is being fiercely equal to our male counterparts. It feels like a common sense thing to me. Since I was a little girl I was a tomboy. I think part of that came from growing up with my dad, who is Greek and very traditional and incredibly sexist. I grew up feeling like I needed to prove that I was just as good as my brother. I never understood why he saw boys and girls as being more or lesser than the other. Equality is something I just felt innately. I think I was born with a soul that had to overcome obstacles of separateness, because it’s been easy for me to see the sameness in everyone. So feminism to me is standing up for equality with fierceness. It means standing up for my fellow women when I feel like they’re being oppressed. And it also means living my life in a way that when others see it they see a strong, independent human being.

Do you have a favorite quote or mantra that you try to live your life by?
“I’m doing the best I can with what I have.” The way my spiritual teacher Monica taught it to me is that even when we think we’re not doing our best, in the moment we are. And if we knew better, we’d do better. So when I mess up, I just remind myself I’m doing my best with what I have and what I know.

My second favorite mantra is twofold: “I’m sorry,” and “Thank you.”

What are you most passionate about?
I am most passionate about freedom. And I don’t necessarily just mean freedom from oppression, but more freedom from the things that keep you separate from your self. I teach that passionately through yoga. I want to remind people that there’s more to life than work and monetary success. Freedom comes in small moments of joy between friends, or taking a walk without your phone. Freedom comes from turning off all the outer voices and listening to the inner voice. I want to help people learn to be happy and content.

How will you spread this lifestyle of freedom and contentment?
Teaching it, living it, sharing it…that’s why I’m so open when I teach. I talk about my own experiences a lot, even things most people don’t usually share in that context. Because I know we’ve all done things we’re not proud of. No one really talks about it outright though.


Finish this sentence: I am _____________ .
I am strong.

Heather's got your back.
xxo

Washington D.C.


I spent last week in Washington D.C. with my mom visiting my cousin and exploring the history contained within the district. It was humbling in a lot of ways. I felt connected to history, to my heritage as an American. And inspired to work to make my current days a history that future generations will look back on and be proud of. 






xxo

I've Got Your Back feat. Carolyn Kiesner

Carolyn and I met through Arden Hot Yoga. She and her husband practice there and I remember thinking the first time I saw them together, "Damn they're a handsome couple!" Seriously though. When they decide to have babies they're gonna be so beautiful.

Carolyn is amazing. She's adventurous, outdoorsy, brilliant, in the STEM field, and is blazing trails for other young girls and women to do the same. Read on to learn more from this incredible woman.


What is a recent book or article that you’ve read that has challenged your thinking, inspired you, or changed you?
It’s probably my Meditations from the Mat book. Every day it takes you through different elements of the path of yoga. Some days I am able to take 5-10 minutes on my mat to clear my head. I’m thankful to start my day off with these passages. Recently I read something from Rumi, “Let the beauty we love be what we do.” I work in a very male-dominated field, and I think because of that I’ve tried to act a certain way and behave a different way, which wasn’t reflective of who I was. I remember thinking, “well he wouldn’t do it like that.” I’m beginning to realize that I need infuse who I am in what I do, and then I think what I do will become what I love.

Who is an influencer in your life?
Even though I think my mom is kind of crazy and maybe unstable or irrational, she has always pushed me to be independent and to stick with school and my passions. She’s always been my cheerleader and taught me that I need to be able to make my own money and provide for myself. That idea really shaped me-that I shouldn’t depend on anyone else to take care of me financially.
As much as my mom drives me nuts, she’s been influential in my life in a big way that I hadn’t really recognized until recently.



What does feminism mean to you?
Feminism is acknowledging and embracing who I am, who we are as women, and embracing the feminine parts of us and supporting one another in overcoming challenge and adversity. I think a big misconception of feminism is that it has a negative connotation. But feminism is really just about supporting one another. Like what you’re doing with I’ve Got Your Back, I think it’s a way for women to show each other support, because we don’t do that enough.

Do you have a favorite quote or mantra that you try to live your life by?
The current quote that’s attached to all of my work emails is, “The people that dare to change the world are the ones that do.” When I first read it, it reminded me that we can sit around and wait for ideas to happen, or you can make it happen yourself.

What are you most passionate about?
It’s almost like there’s an outward passion and an inward passion. The outward passion is about supporting girls in starting careers in the STEM field. In my field I’ve had my own set of challenges as the only woman on a team of men. I’ve help myself back in my career because I told myself, “I don’t look like [a man], I don’t act like them, there’s no way I could ever be a V.P of anything or a manager or in sales…” But it was because I never had examples of women in those roles. I want to show girls there are other paths and they have the potential to do anything within their careers.
Inwardly, I’m passionate about balance, especially with the health issues I’ve had. This desire to be in balance is why I practice yoga, it’s why I read my mediation book. I’ve learned to manage my time more effectively.

How will you help influence young girls and encourage them in their interests in STEM?
Right now I’ve been working with girls in a STEM program at Pleasant Grove High School. It feels good because they’re happy to have me there. So I’m excited to build that.
I’ve also spoken at events, like UC Merced for Latina engineering students. That one in particular got me so hyped up with their engagement, the questions they were asking, and my own stories and experiences I’ve had that I got to share with them. I think that’s where my passion to work with young women really started.



Finish this sentence: I am _______________.
I am excited.

Carolyn’s got your back.

xxo

Santa Cruz


I spent last weekend in Santa Cruz visiting my cousin. She lives about a block away from the beach, and seeing as how she's lived there for nearly three years now, I can't believe it took me so long to make my way down!


Last week I also got my hair cut and colored (thank you tax return!), and was updating my hairdresser on the current status of my life. We talked about work (or my feelings of a lack there of), photography, and travel. Although I haven't taken many trips lately that require a flight, I've been so fortunate to be able to drive out to San Francisco, Point Reyes, and Santa Cruz for little getaways. 


Tomorrow my mom and I will be traveling to Washington D.C. I'm reminded of how lucky I am in this life. Despite less than optimal circumstances, I get to travel and explore and let go of the little daily stressors for a week while visiting D.C. There's a phrase my mom and I remind each other of (ok, it's her reminding me more often than the other way around...) from The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle.

Here and now.


xxo




Back At It


There's this natural ebb and flow to life that sometimes I understand and can recognize, and other times I know I'm unconscious and unaware of. Last summer I started focusing on writing in this platform regularly as a way to improve my writing, as a way of challenging myself creatively, and as a way to connect with others. Because of those initial motivations, I want my words and images here to be authentic and true to who I am. 

Last month I let several weeks go by without posting. In the moment I felt frustrated with myself that I seemingly couldn't keep up with posting. But the truth is, I didn't have much to say those weeks-at least not in a way that I knew how to convey yet. This week I've felt reenergized to create and produce. Writing has always been cathartic for me. I started keeping journals around the time of preadolescence. It's both embarrassing and hilarious to read back over those entries. 


As an adult now, the things I share in this platform are different from the more intimate things I write in my journals. But the things I write here are still honest and true to who I am. And of that I am proud. Brene Brown has written and talked about the fact that she doesn't share her stories with those outside of her immediate circle until she has worked through them and no longer needs validation or a certain response from those she's sharing with. It's an incredible concept that I think straddles the line of honesty and self-preservation perfectly. It's important for me to show up authentic and real-to not create an image of perfection or having my life together (clearly no one would think that about my life with my posts as of late lamenting on my current job situation). But it's also important to guard your heart, at least to some degree. That way you know that your sense of self does not depend on someone else's reaction or interpretation of your life. 

xo